Lighthouse family - Free

I wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I could break all the chains holding me
I wish I could say all the things that I should say
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear

I wish I could share
All the love that's in my heart
Remove all the bars that keep us apart
And I wish you could know how it feels to be me
Then you'd see and agree that every man should be free

I wish I could be like a bird in the sky
How sweet it would be if I found out I could fly
Well I'd soar to the sun and look down at the sea
And I'd sing cos I know how it feels to be free

I wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I could break all the chains holding me
And I wish I could say all the things that I wanna say
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear

One love one blood
One life you've got to do what you should
One life with each other
Sisters, brothers

One love but we're not the same
We got to carry each other Carry each other
One One One One One...

I wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I knew how it would feel to be free

J wrote a blog @5:07 pm

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Tuesday, August 29, 2006

I'm in a deep hole

Imagine a deep and dark hole... where you cannot even catch a glimspe of your own hands... well, welcome to my world... to what i am in now... well, i am going thru something that few can really go thru... fighting a battle that is toughest... you look into the mirror and found your enemy... a battle against yourself... damn stress, stress given to myself by myself... never had i felt this way b4.. really... walking a path alone... almost giving up... trying to hang on... just let me hang on... for another 10 weeks... i assure you, that i will win this battle... i will... i am telling myself, the future me who will be reading this, i will be proud of myself when i read this in the near future... i assure myself... now...arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

J wrote a blog @7:20 pm

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Monday, August 28, 2006

First day a PTI

It is like a story book that never ends... finish a course, than now start a new one... PTI, course... short and sweet, but fast pace and phyiscally demanding... quite bad, but well, just hoping that things will get better as days go... like i say, i just wanna finish the course in one peice... one full set of skeleton... pray for me too... well, first day kana really bad things... rushing here and there... making my head spins round and round... fearing the instructor... hoping that they really like first day wanna scare you a bit... lets just hope so ba... but well, this is really different... responsiblilty increases and u got more things to do... starting to get homework and writing is needed... really... i really hope god(by whatever name you call him) can really help me... please...

J wrote a blog @9:49 pm

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Saturday, August 26, 2006

Finish my BSLC

Finally, after 10 weeks of gruelling chiong mountain... we've reached the end of the course... COOL!!! promoted loh... hahaha, small promotion... anyway, my life starts here, where my BSLC ends... i going for FS course, another gruelling hell of 10 weeks of physical training... damn... i'm scare and excited too... hope i can saftely finish the course and pass out as a FS... yeah, those BSLC 10 weeks are great, my friend and those friend i know. they've gave me a great experience... my net work starts here...

J wrote a blog @9:36 am

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Sunday, August 13, 2006

Too Hardcore

Yo, guys... i am back... the new me... going to finish my course already... 2 more weeks... really gone thru a lot with those friends of mine in the course... will really never forget them... trench digging??? an exercise too hardcore already... you will really suffer things worse of the worse... the worse thing a man can really ever gone thru... actually i was still feeling ok... it was just when you are digging half way, it RAIN!!! i hate that word man... rain make the soil soft??? nono... it dun... i made you soft... i was just staring at the sky when i rain, dun feel like digging a damn thing lar... really feel worse than shit... but well, now i am here... finish everything le... hahaha... left the 28km... come on push on... i can do it...

J wrote a blog @9:35 am

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Saturday, August 05, 2006

Beautiful Training

Training... is training ever so beautiful? strangly... i didn't feel so... it was shag, the morale was really down, cause we didn't really slept well for the pass few days... or even a week... 4 to 5 hours of sleep due to overloaded stuffs to pack. we tried hard to keep our morale high, but well, it didn't went well... but well, the bond of our section were great, i had lots of great section mate keeping me on. i was really down, due to the fact that i really almost couldn't make it in day 2 of my outfield. but well, something happened at night... after my night training, i went back to my habour base, i saw a scene where no one can really feel unless you are there... sleeping under trees, with lots of fireflies flying on the canopy area... that really made me felt like, outfield isn't that bad either... really...i was happy though... the next day, morale was high and i started to look good... it was really beautiful at night there, with you just sitting there, looking up with the moonlight shining down...

J wrote a blog @10:34 am

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